Death Takes Us Away

There was a time when I was young,
It was unknown to myself about what death is to a life,
Just to be simple it takes ones life away,
Without any mercy,
Without any empathy,
Without any realization, and thoughts or perhaps believes,
Life is simple when one thinks he can have it all but he can't.

There was a time when I was adolescent,
I was naive,
I was perplexed,
I was living in a denial,
There I was standing facing my father's graveyard and just looking and praying,
A time will come when we shall meet again. I promised.

Truth and Lies About Us #chapter 2 of Something That You And Me Are Meant To Be..

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"I don't think I can stand this anymore, it's just too painful for me...", said Melanie.

"So, you wanna give up on us??",cried Max.

"Give up?? I'm not the one who sleeps around,for god sake!Max, I'm trying to put a wedding and you can actually sleeps with my closes friend?? Is that you called 'Give Up' , and Max please see the truth that there's nothing for us, nothing for you and me to be fix with. Nothing!",

"Please Melanie, give us another chance, I admit I screwed it up..."

"You indeed screwed up big time, you know how much you mean to me, and how much my dad always underestimated you, but I kept telling my dad how wonderful he gonna be for me as MY husband...and now there's nothing for me to stand upon to give you or perhaps us another chance, you have my words and now you brake it into thousands of pieces, and it just make me so hurt....",with that the sound of the train arose and it just brakes the whole nightmare that Melanie has thought of during this wee hours. She's hesitated whether this is the right thing to do, left her life back in Munich and starting on her journey to find herself, well some of her friends called it a "Eat,Pray,Love" moment but for here it's much liked a "Stupid,Dumb,Sick" moment, because she's completely hopeless, self defenseless when comes to be alone, she used to be with the Mr.Knows it all and this is the problem, when she had her last trip to a small island in Lugano,southern part of Switzerland with Max last summer, Max was the one handled everything from the hotel to places to visit and this just makes her feel relieved because she doesn't need to do a thing, ain't that good for anyone, right? But this what happens when you broke off and you are stranded on your own without any back up plan, after so long they been together, here she is, all alone and going off to start on her discovery of new places all by herself! 

           The truth about her life is....she's scared, scared of facing her world all alone, to the fact that nobody wants to be all alone in this world. But Melanie has described her life as systematic, she even planned for her wedding in advanced since she saw the diamond ring in Max's drawer(man doesn't know better places to keep a huge secret, regardless pornographic materials). The fact that she's ahead on her life, to have the life she's been dreaming off, she has successful job in a advertising line in Munich and she's ready to quit her job to be with her man of her dreams. Yet, this has become a nightmare, since then she learned to make a back up plan, or maybe she planned to write a book for other women that faced the same situation with her and perhaps she called it; "The Women who Knows It ALL But Still Screwed Up"- that will be wonderful and this can be a true inspirational to all! Here she is, thinking too way ahead of her, and yet she haven't start on her amazing journey, and she got three months to prove to herself that she can be happy, "How can I do it in three months?", "Can I be truly happy?"- she's asking herself this question again and again. But no one seems having the answer for that. 

          It's almost 9.59 pm at her watch, Melanie just looking outside the window and glazed at the vision of night that just going to be dull and yet quiet the rest of the journey. She put her sacks on her seat beside her, it's almost 10.00 pm, the train should make a move any second, and she doubt whether there would be any one sitting beside her, it's good because she just would like to avoid any distraction,being anyone who wants to chit chat, seriously the cheerful Melanie has transformed to a rather quiet and inactive Melanie, and this is something she did because she just wanna be all on her own until....... 

"Is this seat taken Miss??",said by a young gentleman to Melanie.

to be continued...

Something That You and Me Are Meant To Be..

Just have the thought when I took a long walked this morning, it was a bit grey and yet many patches to be solved when I came to think about it. What should I do with my life? Just gonna do the same thing everyday and without realizing I will turn to big 24 end of July! Sometimes we do need a purpose in life to make things go in life, don't you think so?

So, this was a story about one girl who met this good to be true guy on the train when they took the same night train from Munich to Brussels. And this what inspires me to write and this has enhanced me to think about the purposed of life that can meant a lot for some of you out there...

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Melanie, took a long sigh and just wondering whether she should take this ticket and go back to her family. "Take this ticket and see the world! I don't want to see you trap in this city without knowing what happen outside", an old wise man known as her father told her to move to another place and find her self in a new situation, she just recently broke her engagement after preparing half a year for her big day where one day she saw her fiancee slept with her bridesmaid, how sad and tragic could it be. She couldn't think about what to do and where to go next, all her effort on the wedding just wash her mood together with her depression moment in her life. Now she wants to start on a new journey looking to the world and set a new challenges that may awaits her for a big change of her life. She's wondering whether she can fall in love for the second time...and she just don't want to know what's the end gonna be when she choose to open her heart after been racked by that big bastard Max! The train station look bizarre with people shivering from the outside cold weather and she just patiently wait for her train to be called..and this is her moment.

"What do you mean you don't have my name one the ticket?", said an angry young American man to the lady at the counter."What The......Aaand you expect me to pay double if I wanna be on this train???!!!", said Alex furiously, and the lady calm her by saying that they had make a mistake for another passenger which also known as Alex. Here, nothing can bet the charming and good looking guy as Alex Darby, 27 years old with a great New York accent and travelling 9000 miles away from home to be with his job! Nothing can stop this guy to pursued his career out of anything else. The best thing about Alex, he never learned to stop believing, he got the chanced to work with great people like Steve Jobs, Richard Brenson at a very young age, and this gives him the opportunity to be advance from the rest. He gave hundred percent commitment to his job, his liked one of those devotes to jobs where he can spent 18 hours at the office and still can keep up with his performance. He is on his way to Brussels to meet an important investor to invest in his giant company Big Inc. that successfully works behind financial credibility on human resources(only god knows what that means), he travel from place to place and he enjoys it, from the Bigben to Sydney opera house, he had seen it all at a very young age. And here he is, in this massive Munich train station cursing to this German lady about her misplaced his name with another 'Alex' with his name. He gave his credit card without furthering his argument with the German lady who speaks poor English. The lady continued to say, "There's only one seat left beside another passenger, is it okay Mr. Darby?" and with that Alex looked at the lady with his mouth inches to be opened and the lady understood, "Okay, done, 22:00 to Brussels for one, blanket provided, anything else Sir?".
"No, that will be all, thanks!"
And with that this will be a moment to remember where Alex not gonna be in the same journey as always, he is gonna pretty much have a change of a life time...and thanks to this German lady, who now retired and stays at the old folks home in outset of Munich. Thanks to her.

to be continued....


redza zakaria

Viva La France

There are a few journeys man need to choose every single path and when they can make a good choice then this can bring them to a destiny that enlighten them to a new world. In case some of you wondering what am I bubbling about, this is about doing something that you love and of course it must not come in cheap or free. Things done need to be spent wisely because man has one precious life that must be used wisely in terms of choosing the best path that can bring you to a place that people just thought of not going.

It's been quite a long trip that took me to be in one places, and this is one of the best country in the world, France! A country that enriched in culture, varsity and unique buildings that can just make one to amaze with the great architecture of this ancient building. Sometimes, this kind of places can just make u realized whether you belong to be here and this must be one of those dreams that cannot be happening but think again, if you are there standing in front, eye-to-eye with one of the epic building in entire universe (Eiffel Tower) or perhaps the great Louvre then you just may want to pinch your face and wonder this was in fact real to your life!

All travelers may encountered different experiences while they were on their journey, but then again who wants to tide up by holding a Lonely Planet and walked around and based on "Must to do list", it's just mind boggling when you have things in planned, I preferred it to be spontaneous, woke up and just look at the busy streets of Paris, and take a sipped of nice latte with cream and tasted one of the best made crossaint with delightful butter all the best you can find in europe!

Being in one of the best city in the world doesn't get better when you just have some nice local acquaintance to show you around, I always believe is best to have a local chauffeur to bring you around, so this is the best way to get to the city and of course checking to some of the nicest hot spot among the local, it's kinda normal for those tourist to stick to the same place and goes back to the same cafe, this is the best time to try new things and explore new places, it's OKAY to experiment with foods, and you won't have the chance to be there again for a very long time(unless if you are like a celebrity or politician or something....)

The ideal to travel alone compared as to travel with a companion(lovers,families,friends etc) is that you can do stuff that you yourself enjoy and its nice to walk along the aisle of Eiffel Tower and just enjoying the moment of the beautiful scenery to be with, but then not everyone would like to travel alone, I met a couple a very nice and yet they quarreled sometimes about what to eat and stuff, they told me that travelling with someone it's easy because there's someone that can take pictures of you, they told me about their trip in Rome, where they asked this one Italian guy to snapped their pictures at the famous Spanish Steps, and when they turned around while climbing the stairs, that guy just gone immediately. Well I see some point in that with travelling alone, because you intend to have this 'taking the picture by yourself where your faces intend to be bigger than usual) so it make a lot of sense to travel with a companion, but if you enjoy and want to try then why shouldn't you? Perhaps you would like it, as much as I do...


Paris,
redza

A Thin Line

I was there, that time when there was the moment for us to remember, we cherish those moment that might never re-visited us for a long distance of time, and here we are looking outside waiting for the right moment to come to just telling the whole world that you want your old life back, how much you missed those people you've lost along the way, how much you hated to be alone while it's raining outside, a mug of nescafe wouldn't cure the event in your heart because you know that you will forever has this lump in your throat and your heart just stop functioning to the time when you realized for us to move on to the next phase of life.

You and Me, we just in this line where we choose to go, and this line can never be broken unless if you choose to. But this society of heart is just too hard to resit the temptations to said how much I miss our old conversation back in the old days, how much those time has grown us apart and make us a better human being for now where it belongs.

Those perplexed moment we had, was just memorizing and those line we said its simply untouchable by anyone to my mind, this whole sub-conscious of mine is just for now to remember and no more to be in mind as long as we shall behave well in our own spaces, and this has thus created a thin line between us, and it will be broken one day, and that time you are like a bird ,free to go from my circle of life when it's the right time for the both of us..

redz

Restructure

Nothing can happen between us without me not knowing that you do not belong with me anymore. Is this the end of it? Is this the beginning of something amazing? Yes, I know its maybe too late to go back to our old song and sing it out loud, but that's what you want, isn't?

Life is just simplest thing that we plan for it, but again who are we to put in anyway we like it? So far, I came across many people that just didn't have any goals or dreams in their life, but just they take it life to be simple, simple as in do the normal routines, without hesitate they continue to developed their living skills,ie with others.

To be that person who you wanna be for your love one is hard especially when you have double personalities- like one of my friend who appeared to be fine at work,mingle around,laugh around but instead at home he is another person, he don't feel comfortable with his own family, regardless any situation he just excluded himself from being part of the journey, well who are we to judge why he did such a thing? But isn't better for us to be forming into a better creature to our own flesh and blood, and putting all those silly stuff that happens in the past just back to the past, but living in the cult of human behavior,where if one do a bad thing to us then we will just remember it for the rest of our lives.

To put in any way,we want to be successful in what we are doing, who doesn't? But what for? For pride? For the sake of dollars and sens? For your future well being? For fun? For life? Is life meaningful to stay up late in the office more than 9 hours a day? Is it worth of trying something new when we have the chance? I think that's what we been doing all these while? Waking up early in the morning, having a cup of coffee just to start our day a fresh new day, facing the world with all the guts in our heart.. we certainly deserves a nice reward to bind all these life style where we need to earn for a living just to ensure there's food on the table, life is all about ensuring that everything is alright! Well for some, life is just about to making money without caring others well being.

The purpose I came across this way of expressing my view is just too abstract to understand, my life lately requires changes from mentally to physically where I need to planned ahead or in a way "restructure" back my life to ensure that everything run well like water flowing nicely at the river, maybe there's a few bumper stickers along the way but I will try to managed it as soon it happen, I have to, no choice but to restructure back my life to make it well, perfect, well not perfect as in very but yea at least I try....

hugs,
redz

Lies

The moment we had together,
The experience we faced together,
The time we spent together,
Is just a waste when you throw rocks to my face,
The arrow that struck to my liver without knowing what's the effect/

Those lies you create is massive,
Those lies is truly your creation without a doubt you are a liar!